favorite blaine outfits (season 5)
Glitter rock vampire, huh?
I-I didn’t mean that, I’m sorry.
I like that.. I could work with that.
Taking a short break from editing, I’ve been scrolling on my dash, not really paying attention, thinking about the people I miss who have left the Glee fandom. That list is growing, and I get it—the show is winding down, the characters have evolved, and maybe not in the ways people hoped they would. And sometimes fandom itself can dampen the experience; I get that, too. A lot has happened since that glorious time that was S2.
So why am I still here? Because I still believe in Klaine.
Now, that statement might inspire many eye rolls; I know some people perceive me to be a Pollyanna around these parts. But understand that I grew up in a time when the only queer representation on television ended up dead, or homeless, or forced back into the closet—for the five minutes that token character was allowed to be on television. Gay teenagers in love? Millions of people tuning in to watch them? A relationship on par with the leading hetero pairing? If you had told me that would happen even ten years ago I would have said, “Are you high?”
And I believe in Klaine because they are iconic, and because I know they are supposed to be. They get the same treatment as all iconic romantic couples, and that means pain, and odd twists, and conflict. Because they are iconic we get more than a side story; we get a “saga.”
Maybe I’m still here because I’ve lived long enough to know from experience that it is possible to love someone even when you don’t trust them to do the right thing, even when they piss you off, and stop making sense, and yes, even when you wonder if it will work out in the end. And I apply that to Glee. So, I’m sticking it out, man. For me, this is too important, and still so much fun.
Rachel, you know you guys weren’t dating when it all went down, you know?
I’m just so scared that you’re gonna keep changing, and you’re gonna keep getting stronger. And then one day you’re gonna wake up and you’re gonna realize that “I don’t love him anymore”.
PART I. HOW IT ALL BEGAN (SEASON II)
- Athens, shirt. Sparta, skin.
- Guess I’ll be the Spartan.
Apparently our darling CB is able to predict canon Klaine…
I’ve been waiting for this to come across my dash again (or at least a variant of it.) The interesting thing about the comparison of these two scenes is that the first time Blaine’s insecurities come up, Kurt reassures him and then smiles like he’s fixed everything. Like it was one small hiccup, and now everything’s going to be okay. But now, with these same insecurities coming up over and over again, with Blaine so convinced that Kurt’s going to jump ship the moment something better comes along, Kurt’s not smiling anymore. He knows it isn’t over. I don’t think he quite knows what to do about it yet, but he’s aware that this is a bigger problem than he could’ve ever believed at first, and hopefully he’s going to try to figure out a way to help and support Blaine.
(Sidenote: I’ve seen a lot of stuff on my dash about what Kurt is doing and what Blaine is doing and is Kurt doing things right to make Blaine feel secure and is Blaine doing things right to try to understand how Kurt feels about him and are they doing enough to make themselves work and… It feels like blame, a lot of it, and I’m having a hard time with that because first off: Kurt’s awkwardness with his feelings isn’t any more Blaine’s fault than Blaine’s insecurity is Kurt’s, and second, it presupposes that if they do the right things, that they can fix each other, that Kurt can emote right — whatever that is — and that Blaine can be totally secure forever, and that’s not how these things work! I mean, did we learn nothing from Will and Emma? They are always going to have these problems. They can learn to recognize what their individual problems are, work past their innate defensiveness about those problems and be open — “I’m doing the thing again, you’ll have to be patient with me” — and try to work past the bad moments/weeks/years together, but that takes a fucking lifetime to learn, and they’re both barely twenty.
(And, you know, it’s not enough for Kurt to learn what Blaine’s issues are and for Blaine to learn Kurt’s. Kurt has to learn Kurt’s issues, and Blaine has to learn Blaine’s, or there’s no solution. Kurt could figure out exactly what Blaine’s core wounds are tomorrow, and if he came at Blaine with them, to try to be helpful, it would feel like an attack to Blaine. They have to learn to recognize their own patterns first.
(This post wasn’t meant to go to this place, but I’m just really fucking frustrated that traits that have been part of the characters all along, things that are well-established as predating their relationship and having roots in dozens of other incidents — as well as, probably, a biological basis — are being reduced down to what feels like, to me, a contest as to who is boyfriending better. Because that’s not what this is about! It’s so much more complicated, and it will take so much longer to work through, and that’s why it fucking matters.)